Traditionally, I spend the week between Christmas and New Years depressed about all my many failures in the last year — What? I’m still not
20 30 years younger and a size 0? I have always thought that it has a lot to do with being born on January 1st so I’m not just looking at the end of another year, I’m angsting about being another year older and not having accomplished my goals.
This year, I’ve been way too sick to bother being depressed about anything so esoteric as where I am in life. Besides, 50 seems a little weird but not that big of a deal. 47 was a big deal. It was when I realized that I was almost 50. Heh. I seem to have a thing about the 7s. At 37 I was stressed about turning 40. In fact, I spent the next several years being in denial. I was 37, 38, 39, 30-10, 30-11, 30-12… and finally 30-13 seemed to be pushing it a little. When I turned 27 I realized I wasn’t a teenager anymore. Seriously.
Actually, the funniest age-related thing was a couple years ago when I turned “49.” Yeah, a couple years ago. I went straight from 47 to 49 and didn’t realize I had skipped 48 until about half way through the year. I can’t remember what triggered my awareness but I remember thinking — wait a minute, 2011 minus 1963 does not equal 49… As far as I was concerned, that gave me the right to claim to be 48 for half this year.
So, on to 50. I don’t make resolutions. I think they set you up for failure because, at least for me, there’s such a lot of perfectionism involved. But I have goals. I postponed goals that I probably should have been working on because the holidays are such a hard time to eat healthier. I really want to get my blood sugar under better control. It’s better than it was but still too high. And I want to start losing weight again. Both of those goals are really about eating better. And how am I going to do that? What I really want to do is to cook more. I haven’t been cooking much in months… or longer. I definitely eat better if I cook rather than heating up a pizza or microwaving macaroni and cheese. I’d like to make some new and interesting things and post them on Chickens and Eggs.
So what are your goals for the coming year?