It’s been a grumpy week here at Chez Zaz. Nothing really big or important, just small frustrations. Actually, many of these small frustrations are kind of repeating over the past few weeks. But still, just small frustrations. And sleep has sucked. I’m sad and I realize how sad when I notice that my dreams are sad. Dreams ought to be happy.
I need a hit of my lyrical anthem.
I’ve accomplished less than what I had hoped to this week – but I did get some things done. I know, Monday is goal day but I am feeling a need to pat myself on the back for the things I did get done – or started.
I realized that I have been using finances as an excuse not to buy any new clothes, or at least anything nice. I don’t have a lot of extra, but I do have some and if necessary, I can use some of my savings to buy a couple pieces. I want and deserve a few things nicer than my usual tee and jeans. So, I ordered a couple things. Haven’t gotten to my closet yet but really, it’s more a matter of boxing up the stuff I don’t wear than any angsty decisions. The stuff I do wear is in this one little section, the rest can go without my having to look at it.
I’ve been wanting to do something creative – outside of cooking. For a couple years I’ve wanted to make a fairy garden so that’s what I’m going to do. I’ve started collecting inspirations and suggestions and places to get some cool fairy furniture and such. Step one, or is it two now? Anyway, the next step is to find an interesting container. So, my goal is to hit our local flea markets and see what I can find that inspires me. This is going to require something I’ve been avoiding…getting the wheelchair into the car since I can’t walk long enough to explore a flea market. I haven’t wanted to admit to myself that I’m back to the point that I need to do that. But I do.
I’ve continued to work on creative cooking goals – some things healthy, some things less healthy. I made a tasty vegetarian curry for this week’s meatless Monday. I made baked jalapeno poppers stuffed with jalapeno popper dip. (I left out the canned peppers and added extra jalapeno, next time I will leave out the mayonnaise.) And Friday I made focaccia and divided the dough into three, topped one with smoked gouda and caramelized onions, one with tomato and basil, and one with cheddar and jalapenos. There was also some junk food in the week which was a response to those frustrations. Trying not to beat myself up for that.
I haven’t got my reading done this week. I’m hoping to do some later today or Monday and I will post about anything interesting I find or what inspires me. I also have decided on some ways to decrease distractions while I eat but I haven’t actually tried them yet. My goal is to eat away from my office for dinner 5 days this week and to have only one distraction. I’d also like to pay attention to my portion and make sure I’m taking the time to see if I feel satisfied rather than eat more just because I like the way it tastes. Meatless Monday is going to be an onion and mushroom tart which sounds quite tasty. Oh, I joined Pinterest after avoiding it for the last couple years to find some cooking inspiration. You can find me as zazamataz if you do the Pinterest thing. I’m also getting fairy garden inspirations there.
I will list out my goals more specifically tomorrow. I’m ready for bed now.